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Why Do I Write?

September 5th, 2010 by Jake

Why do I write/draw?

Spar­ing you the tedious expe­di­tion of my own his­tory of writing/drawing or the his­tory of this par­tic­u­lar ques­tion, the answer is sim­ple:  It makes me feel like I am a god.

When I write and draw, I am cre­at­ing some­thing.  That act of cre­ation, how­ever small it may be, is my own in that moment.  Through writ­ing and draw­ing I can cre­ate new worlds and new life.  One could say that from our per­spec­tive I am merely putting things on paper, but the feel­ing I get when I “put those things on paper” is a hint that some­thing exists beyond what I’ve laid down.  Even if it is intrin­si­cally tied to the paper I put it on, the idea of the world or char­ac­ter itself tran­scends it.

When I write and draw, my mind holds worlds in its palm, cre­at­ing the hori­zon as it tends to them with care.  My char­ac­ters take on a sense of indi­vid­u­al­ity, being fully part of me but at the same time being their own, indi­vid­ual selves.  I mold them to have flaws and faults, know­ing that in over­com­ing the for­mer that I have cre­ated some­thing that is some­how greater than per­fec­tion.  I chal­lenge my worlds and inhab­i­tants, dar­ing them to rise to the great­ness I have placed within them.

When I write and draw, I imag­ine myself as a glow­ing, celes­tial fig­ure, float­ing in a void of dark­ness and stars.  With a thought, I bring forth a world, and then begin to detail its past and future and present.  Slowly, over long peri­ods of time, I inscribe these details onto paper, and the world and its inhab­i­tants become filled with life as the idea within them reaches out to read­ers and observers.  As long as their name is spo­ken and their story is told, they will live on, grow­ing into some­thing greater.

That is why I write and draw.  The love for my cre­ations that per­me­ates my being when I cre­ate is addict­ing, more than any­thing else in the world.

So, let me ask you:  If you write or draw, or just like com­ing up with ideas… why do you do it?

Keep on dreaming.

Jake the Dreamaniac

Poetry Post: The Long Wait

September 2nd, 2010 by Jake

So, we’ve been learn­ing about vil­lanelles in Lit­er­a­ture Analy­sis.  They’re a form of poetry that:

1.)  Con­sists of nine­teen lines.

2.) Has five stan­zas, each of three lines, with a final one of four lines.

3.) The first line of the first stanza is repeated as the last line of the sec­ond and fourth stanzas.

4.) The third line of the first stanza is repeated as the last line of the third and fifth stanzas.

5.) These two refrain lines fol­low each other to become the second-to last and last lines of the poem.

6.) The rhyme scheme is aba.  The rhymes are repeated accord­ing to the refrains.

So, after absorb­ing this, I went and wrote one.  I’m… not sure why I wrote what I did, but I fig­ure I should at the very least share it.

The Long Wait

by Jake Courington

Watch her body slowly decay,
Hear silent mourn­ing through­out the home
As we approach the end of day.

See the place where she will lay,
Neath a tree of ironic green.
Watch her body slowly decay.

The blue of her eyes slowly turns to grey,
And pale flesh is drawn taught over her bones
As we approach the end of day.

Her voice comes as soft as the whis­per of the fey,
Her touch as weak as a whith­ered tree branch.
Watch her body slowly decay.

I tray with all my might to say,
I have the courage to see this through
As we approach the end of day.

But as her twi­light draws near,
And shad­ows lengthen all around the home, we must
Watch her body slowly decay,
As we approach the end of day.

——

If you’ll excuse me, I’m going to go cry for a bit.

Keep on dream­ing.  No mat­ter what.

Jake the Dreamaniac

The Frugal Nature of Laundry (and Other Thoughts on School.)

August 30th, 2010 by Jake

If there’s one thing that will teach you to watch your money care­fully and cut cor­ners where you can, it would be a home eco­nom­ics course.  (Un)Fortunately, I have dis­cov­ered another path to fru­gal­ity:  Doing your laun­dry dur­ing college.

It costs $4 to do a full load of laun­dry here at CU: $1 each for the washer and dryer per load, and seper­ate loads for col­ors and whites.  I ended up spend­ing $5 because I had started my (color) bed­sheets as a seper­ate load before real­iz­ing I could have com­bined them with my color cloth­ing.  I will heed this les­son in the future.

Aside from this mun­dane domes­tic fiasco, col­lege has been loads of fun.  Just yes­ter­day I joined a hand­ful of girls from my dorm in watch­ing the extended edi­tions of  every Lord of The Rings movie; there was quite a bit of fun ban­ter and analy­sis of the homo­sex­ual rela­tion­ship between Frodo and Sam.  I’m think­ing about ask­ing them to give Dun­geons and Drag­ons a try.  I’ll let you all know how it goes.

My classes have been fun and inter­est­ing so far.  In Lit­er­ary Analy­sis we’ve been intro­duced to the vil­lanelle, a poetic form that is odd, com­plex, and cir­cu­lar, quite odd to read but entranc­ing at the same time.  Intro to Lit­er­ary The­ory hasn’t really begun any­thing in earnest, but the pro­fes­sor is both nice and knowl­edge­able enough to have writ­ten a book on the sub­ject.  It just so hap­pens to be on our required read­ing list for the class, but hey, we all have to eat.

Anthro­pol­ogy has Pro­fes­sor Van Ger­ven, and that’s all I need to say on that subject.

As for dorm life, there’s been a large num­ber of inter­est­ing things.

One inter­est­ing thing I’ve noticed is how easy it is to get pulled into philo­soph­i­cal dis­cus­sions, espe­cially late at night.  Last week (I think it was wednes­day?) I sat in the hall­way dis­cussing the mean­ing of a qual­ity watch as it per­tains to one’s phi­los­o­phy in life.  Dur­ing our dis­cus­sion, we were inter­rupted by another hall-mate, who declared that he did not believe time existed.  After forc­ing the intruder to admit he could not prove that time did not exist, I got into another argu­ment with my pre­vi­ous com­pan­ion about prob­a­bil­ity and chance and whether there was any sort of higher/transient power (explic­itly not God.)

Good times.

My artis­tic abil­ity has also been noticed.  Each dorm room has a white­board on the front for mes­sages and other things, and a short while after I moved in I took the time to draw my car­toon avatar (along with an announce­ment that I’m search­ing for D&D play­ers.)  This was noticed by Lau­ren, a cute short orange-haired girl who isn’t our Res­i­dent Advi­sor but is such a nat­ural social but­ter­fly that she’ll prob­a­bly become one in the future.  She told me that if I ever felt like post­ing my draw­ings on the hall announce­ment board, “to brighten it up,” I was wel­come to go ahead.  Fast for­ward to yes­ter­day, when on a whim I drew a small pic­ture of Ben (our RA) and Lau­ren under a “Wel­come to the 3rd Floor!” sign.  Upon show­ing it to Lau­ren, she asked me to do draw­ings of the entire hall.  In my own time, of course, but the fact that she liked it enough to make that big of a request filled me with golden but­ter­flies that lifted me off the ground for the rest of the day.

Speak­ing of art, I have an inter­est­ing story to tell you all about regard­ing my new friend Ben (A dif­fer­ent Ben than the Res­i­dent Advi­sor.)  Ben is actu­ally the same guy with whom I had the dis­cus­sion about watches and prob­a­bil­ity vs. divine intent.  He’s a smart, well-off guy, and has already made large amounts of money both in the stock mar­ket (insane, I know) and by run­ning a small loan busi­ness in his high school.  Dur­ing one of the late-night talks, I men­tioned my tablet and how I could draw on it, then brought it out to show it off.  Ben imme­di­ately asked if I could draw him as a awe­some samurai/ninja guy, to which I responded that I cur­rently didn’t have a tablet pen but was con­sid­er­ing pur­chas­ing a new one online.  With­out blink­ing an eye, he states that he’ll pay for it with his credit card just so I can start draw­ing on it again.

See­ing as it was late at night, I asked him to delay mak­ing a deci­sion on that until tomor­row after­noon, when he would have had time to think about it with a clearer mind.

The fol­low­ing after­noon, he was still cer­tain about his deci­sion, so I drew him a paper draft and agreed to draw him a large-scale color ver­sion as pay­ment for his kind­ness (the pen was about $30, so I’m treat­ing it as a high-quality comis­sioned work).  The pen hasn’t arrived yet, and I’m still both shocked and flat­tered that some­one would invest their money in me like this.  Ben is crazy and awesome.

That’s about all I have for today.  Keep an eye out for draw­ings to start show­ing up in a week or so; I’ve resolved to fin­ish Ben’s piece before I do any other art.  It’s the least I can do for him.

Keep on dreaming,

Jake the Dreamaniac

Happy 16th, Sis.

August 28th, 2010 by Jake

Hey, Rachel. I’m sorry I can’t be there for your birth­day, but col­lege has started to get busy and I never got around to mak­ing plans for today.

Thank­fully, I can at least wish you a happy 16th birth­day.  It’s quite a mile­stone; it’s only a lit­tle longer before you start dri­ving on your own, and bit by bit you’ll begin tak­ing on more of the pri­valages and respon­si­bil­i­ties of being an adult.  I’m con­fi­dent that you’ll be able to han­dle them.  Most of the time, at least.

I know we bicker alot and don’t agree on most things, but I want you to know that I still love you.  What­ever we might say to each other, we’re still fam­ily, and I admit my life wouldn’t have been nearly as inter­est­ing with­out you around.  From the depths of my heart, I thank you.

Unfor­tu­nately, I don’t have my tablet pen and my scan­ner isn’t work­ing, or I’d draw you some­thing as my birth­day present.  As a con­cil­la­tory gift, albeit one I’m not sure you’ll like, I’ll give you the oppor­tu­nity to find and use a word that I wont be able to under­stand.  Just click on this link.

Happy birth­day, and keep on dreaming.

With love,

Your Brother

Musical Therapy

August 26th, 2010 by Jake

I’ll admit it, some­times I just feel down.  The moments are inex­plic­a­ble, have a vari­ety of vague and unim­por­tant causes, and can bring me down for an entire day.

I have devel­oped a sys­tem to com­bat these moments, how­ever.  It ban­ishes the vague sense of fatigue so thor­oughly that it ceases to have ever existed.  What is this sys­tem, you ask?

I put on my Whippy Hat, crank up the vol­ume on my com­puter, and do the Caramell­dansen.

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Keep on dancing.

Jake the Dansenmaniac

Professor Van Gerven…

August 23rd, 2010 by Jake

… has one of the coolest names ever. He is also the quin­tes­sen­tial Cool Teacher; amongst other things, he:

- Made it clear he actu­ally cares about teach­ing a qual­ity class, unlike other pro­fes­sors who only care about their labs.

- Has sus­pi­ciously mus­cu­lar fore­arms cov­ered in rose-and-thorns tattoos.

- Rocks a bald head with grace and charm akin to that of Patrick Stew­art.

- Made me extremely excited to study Anthro­pol­ogy when before I was entirely ambiva­lent about the class.

I’m quite seri­ous.  Pro­fes­sor Van Ger­ven is one of those rare and gifted teach­ers who has both a loud, clear voice and some­thing inter­est­ing to say.  Dur­ing part of his intro­duc­tion speech, he told us that once we were done with his class, we’d never want to go to a zoo again (ref­er­enc­ing the abom­inable treat­ment of apes and mon­keys despite their intel­li­gence, which we will even­tu­ally study in depth.)

I hon­estly can’t wait to get started.  The next class is wednes­day, and I’ve already started tak­ing notes on the first chap­ter of our text­book.  This guy is one of those peo­ple who I des­per­ately want to impress, because it’s obvi­ous that impress­ing him is means something.

Keep on dreaming,

Jake the Dreamaniac

A Non-Anvilicious Approach to Alcohol

August 22nd, 2010 by Jake

First of all, let me define Anvi­li­cious for those of you who don’t reg­u­larly visit TV Tropes:

port­man­teau of anvil and deli­ciousmali­cious or vicious, depend­ing on the usage, anvi­li­cious describes a writer’s and/or director’s use of an artis­tic ele­ment, be it line of dia­logue, visual motif, or plot point, to so obvi­ously or unsub­tly con­vey a par­tic­u­lar mes­sage that they may as well etch it onto an anvil and drop it on your head. Fre­quently, the ele­ment becomes anvi­li­cious through unnec­es­sary rep­e­ti­tion, but true mas­ters can achieve anvi­li­cious­ness with a sin­gle stroke.  Heavy-handed for the new mil­len­nium. Extreme polar oppo­site of sub­tle.” Source: TV Tropes Wiki

Anvi­li­cious­ness is found fre­quently in edu­ca­tional mate­r­ial deal­ing with things like sex, drugs, and alchohol.  The authors of these mate­ri­als appear to believe that the only way to get a mes­sage into the head of a child or teenager is with the com­mu­nica­tive equiv­a­lent of a hammer.

I was thus sur­prised and impressed with the online work­shop Alco­holEDU, which all incom­ing stu­dents of the Uni­ver­sity of Col­orado are required to go through.

First of all, the pro­gram doesn’t ham­mer on the chord of “ALCOHOL IS TEH EVULZ.”  Ever.  Via a col­lec­tion of infor­ma­tive car­toons, polls, videos, and doc­u­ments, Alco­holEDU sim­ply pro­vides you with the data and facts about alco­hol, the var­i­ous facets of its con­sump­tion (bio­log­i­cal, social, psy­cho­log­i­cal, etc.), and how you can make smart, respon­si­ble deci­sions regard­ing it.

In hind­sight, I real­ize why I found this so much more inter­est­ing and infor­ma­tive than any other program/workshop/class I’ve been in before: it treated me with respect.  The char­ac­ters (which in such mate­ri­als are always meant to be stand-ins for the view­ers) were not total idiots who ended up get­ting them­selves get­ting killed/pregnant/hospitalized because they were too thick-skulled to fol­low the aesop.  Instead, they were think­ing, crit­i­cal peo­ple who actu­ally thought before they acted, and thus came out on top.

This, I think, is the key that would make most other edu­ca­tional films/materials about taboo sub­jects far more effec­tive: stop treat­ing the view­ers like inex­pe­ri­enced kinder­gart­ners, and start giv­ing them the bare facts and infor­ma­tion.  Don’t make the char­ac­ters choose the obvi­ously wrong choices just so you can show what would hap­pen to the viewer(s): give them brains, and make them act in a believ­able way.  Have them dis­cuss and con­sider the con­se­quences of choos­ing the wrong action, which causes them to real­ize it’s a bad idea and walk away.

Kids are smart.  If you give them a chance to actu­ally learn about sex/drugs/alcohol, let them get into the nitty-gritty facts and data, they’ll take away far more than try­ing to tat­too the moral into their skulls.

Keep on dreaming,

Jake the Dreamaniac

Arrival

August 19th, 2010 by Jake

You have arrived at col­lege! You have gained a new level!

–Your free­dom has increased by 500!

–Your respon­si­bil­ity has increased by 1000!

–Your dif­fi­culty set­ting has been per­ma­nently adjusted from Easy to Hard.

Okay, so I’ve finally moved in to the Uni­ver­sity of Col­orado.  Cur­rent psy­cho­log­i­cal sta­tus is hes­i­tant, although I antic­i­pate some light panic once the full grav­ity of the sit­u­a­tion makes itself clear to me.  That shoe hasn’t dropped yet, though.

The weather is slightly over­cast and hot.  Really hot.  The dorms don’t have air con­di­tion­ing, so both me and my new room­mate are sweat­ing a bit.  Add indoor cli­mate con­trol to the list of things I used to take for granted.

I swear, we have GOT to get a fan in here.

To take my mind off the heat, I’ll go through my non-academic goals dur­ing my time at CU:

–Eat healthy.

–Join and/or start a D&D group.

–Either get my scan­ner work­ing or buy a replace­ment tablet pen (ide­ally both.)

And… that’s it, for now.  I’m a lit­tle too over­heated right now to think as clear as I want or need.  Think I’ll go for a walk and acquaint myself with the campus…

Keep on dreaming.

Jake the Dreamaniac

D&D: Leaving a Group

August 12th, 2010 by Jake

As many of you know, I am a total nerd; I vora­ciously read fan­tasy and sci-fi, know far more comic book trivia then I ought to, enjoy anime and manga on occa­sion, have been play­ing videogames since I was six, etc.  D&D is at once the pin­na­cle of my nerd­dom and the activ­ity I get to do the least out of all of those other subjects.

Dun­geons and Drag­ons first cap­tured my inter­est in my early teens, when I had first decided to take pride in being a nerd.  The D&D player was stereo­typ­i­cally depicted as the pin­na­cle of nerdi­ness, and thus I assumed the game would be of inter­est to me.

When I found out the game was essen­tially make-believe with a back­bone of rules to pre­vent con­stant one-upping amongst the play­ers, I fell deeply in love and never looked back.

For the past year (add a month or two) I’ve been a part of a ridicu­lous and enter­tain­ing cam­paign run by my friend Andre.  How­ever, with col­lege fast approach­ing (ONE WEEK!), I will no longer be able to attend ses­sions.  My char­ac­ters… Laika the sword­mas­ter were­wolf, Solace the beau­ti­ful and divinely-inspired quasi-angel, and Thera the cho­sen war­rior of Thor… will have to fall under Andre’s con­trol or sim­ply pass out of the story alltogether.

I’m unsure which part of those ses­sions I’ll miss the most: the deep, com­plex, twist­ing story, the incred­i­bly detailed and thrilling com­bat sequences or sim­ply ban­ter­ing with my friends as we crashed our way uncer­tainly through Andre’s painstak­enly woven story.

Scratch that.  I’ll def­i­nitely miss that last one the most.

While I plan to take my D&D equip­ment with me to col­lege and start­ing my own group, it would be impos­si­ble for me to for­get the mostly fun, some­times emo­tion­ally charged, always inter­est­ing times my friends and I had play­ing a slightly grown-up ver­sion of make believe.

Farewell, my friends.  Keep me posted on what hap­pens with Card Shark and the Inqui­si­tion, alright?

Keep on dreaming.

- Jake the Dreamaniac

Lilith #3

July 18th, 2010 by Jake

Or some­one read­ing this!